I’m dancing in the dark, with you between my arms…

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Hello, everyone!

I know it has been 4 months (almost to the day) since I posted a blog but I needed that hiatus. A lot has happened in my life since I last posted and I can’t wait to share it with you all! As a too long; didn’t read: I stopped blogging because it wasn’t fun anymore but I have realized over the last month that I need a hobby so I’m giving this another go. 🙂 I’m graduating in December with my Bachelor’s in IT Management. I, may, also be moving from Jacksonville, FL next year. I, may, also be starting up a relationship with my ex next year. Lastly, I am walking for my degree in May of this year.

So, if you read the tl;dr above, you know what I’m going to be talking about in this blog. I’m so happy for everything happening in my life. 😀

Attitudes/Ideas Changing…

One thing I didn’t state in the tl;dr is that I am no longer depressed. I know my depression, while real, was only mild on the scale of what it could have been but it is GONE and it has been gone for almost 6 months now. I’M ACTUALLY HAPPY! I can’t believe this. I realized that I’ve been depressed since I was 12 or 13 years old, maybe even younger. That is horrible but this is a miracle! I do get sad sometimes but nowhere near how I was. I’m still working on my self-esteem and confidence but those are a lot better than what they were 6 months ago as well! YAY!

I, also, changed my attitude on hobbies/my sites. I have realized that I have been incredibly bored over the last 4 months and that I needed a hobby. My websites were the first thing to come to mind. So, I’m going to see if I can get back into it and maybe create a theme from scratch for this site. I’ll have to repurchase Adobe CC or redownload CS5 but either way I want to get back into them. I miss spending hours and hours on my sites making them perfect.

Impending Graduation!

I can’t believe I’m graduating this December! I’m so excited! I’m actually DONE with school the beginning of December. I don’t have to study or look at another school book after that! FINALLY. It has taken me an extra 2 years but it was/is worth it because I’ll be getting an IT degree and everyone knows people with degrees in IT will be making a BUTTLOAD of money. 😀 I’m not in it for the money but it is an amazing bonus!

My school only has walking for the degrees once a year so I got invited to go on May 10th! Yes, it is an odd day but it is just over a month away and I CANNOT BELIEVE IT. Like holy crap! I’m getting my degree… this is so unreal.

May or May not move?

This is one of the last topics I want to talk about. So, sometime before my 26th birthday (2020) I have decided that I am going to start up a relationship with Dante, my ex. Dante seems like he is interested in having this happen, maybe not as much as me, but still excited. He never showed me as much excitement last time either so this is expected. Anyway, I need to finish my degree first because I may be moving back to Alabama, where he lives, to start up this relationship. I will have some ground rules though:

  • He has to have a plan on when he is moving out of his mom’s place.
  • He has to have an idea as to where he is going to live when he moves out.
  • He has to make time for me. To me this would mean, 3-4 days a week (including weekends) of at least an hour or two each day.

They aren’t much but they are a start. It would help me know that, yes, he does care that I’m moving 6 hours back to a place that depressed me more than anything. If I do move back to Alabama. If I don’t and we either stay here or move elsewhere (where? I have no idea & that is exciting!), it would help me with the knowledge that I won’t be going somewhere I know 0 people and he just ditches me.

If something happens and we don’t work out, then I know I always have Alabama & Florida to fall back on as my mom has houses in both of those places and I know I could always temporarily move back in until I have enough money to move back out again. So, I can go after this “What if” scenario and not be worried. 😀 This makes me even happier!


Anyway, that’s all I really wanted to talk about today. I’m going to try to do as close to daily blogs as I can. Sometimes I will have school and work and I’ll be too stressed but that’s okay. School + Work come first, then hobbies. 🙂

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